Mummy Meltdown

I am not perfect, i am well aware of this, but it doesnt stop me from feeling incredibly guilty when i have a bad day with tom.
thomas was grouchy when he woke up this morning, and although we had a breif recovery in the middle of the day, he returned to whinging and crying in the evening.
this left me feeling frazzled and short tempered and with the sudden bout of extremly warm weather adding to my rather short fuse, tom got shouted at a few times.
he also tipped a whole cup of juice on himself when i hadnt brought out any spare clothing so he spent the afternoon in a babygrow that was in the bottom of the changing bag, however i couldnt do anything about his wet vest. add to this the fact he now couldnt get out of the pram and walk as he had drenched his shoes and you have one extremly miserable and whingy baby.
its when i have days like this that i wonder if i will be able to cope when ellen is eventually born, because if they are BOTH having a grouchy day at the same time i can see a mummy meltdown happening.
all i can do i suppose is take a deep breathe, vow not to snap so much, and try not to beat myself up for not being a perfect mother.
we should really be making an effort to pack now that we know the move is happening, we got out eviction notice which gives us 2 months to hassle the council and pack up all our belongings. oh and of course have a baby in the middle of the chaos!
its toms first birthday is next thursday. i cant believe this time last year we were childless and waiting for his arrival, and this year we are homeless and waiting for ellen!!
well thats all for now
speak soon
night xx